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Friday, September 21, 2012

Death and foresight

So my grandmother is going to die soon. I just read an email from my aunt who takes care of her. My grandmothers senile dementia is getting worse and she's recovering from heart surgery and breaking her left arm during a fall. It's weird to think about the nice old lady who would give me candy or play the piano in church being gone. But then again, since she moved away to live with my aunt 5 or so years ago she hasn't really been part of my life.

When she would visit it was always nice, her stories and everything were great to listen to and she always had good advice on a broad range of topics. Hell, she even remembered advice from a first grade teacher she had. But I guess that's all changing now, she can't remember things very well anymore and forgets easily. Not too mention it sounds like she's rather irritating to argue with, as my aunt mentioned that. I guess the one thing I'm really sad about is that my father will have to go through the death of his mother at some point in the probable near future. My mother has already gone through that, and I can tell its difficult. I mean, if I try to imagine it its pretty earth-shattering. Someone like that who was a constant growing up suddenly being thrown away, gone forever, all that.

Sucks I guess. But, when you don't see people for a long time and don't keep up with them, I guess it's easy to just continue on without really changing. I mean, if you've gotten along this well without them being the driving force behind you anymore then you'll get along fine without them when they're completely gone. And I think that's all that parents could probably hope for their children. I mean, raise em right and teach em well and they'll carry on while you burn in hell. Sorry, I had to make the rhyme right there, it was too good. But my point is that the reality of any situation is that children (in an ideal world) surpass their parents in the whole living game. So its only natural to pay your respects, nod your head to the reality of the situation, and carry on like you know they'd want you to.

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