Why am I awake?

I don't know why I wake up in the middle of the night. You'd think that with all the running around I do between work, friends, and an amazing girlfriend that I'd be more tired. Yet somehow I seem to have trouble sleeping lately. I get to bed alright, but almost always I wake up at some ridiculous of the morning and am stuck awake thinking for at least an hour.

Not about anything in particular, just life in general and random ideas that pop into my head. Life is just an odd thing really, and I was being driven somewhere the other day and was staring at the trees going by when I funny thought occurred to me. There is so much life on Earth. I imagine that a lot of the time we only ever think of ourselves and maybe a few animals as being alive, and besides that we don't really bother. But, flora as well as fauna are living. The sheer amount of life on Earth is completely insane -- and thinking that only planets in a Goldilocks zone can even possibly support it is crazy too. Maybe the reason there are so many dead planets out there is that there has to be some type of balance between life and death. A doubtful thing I suppose since if you'd like to stick to your scientific guns you'd have to come up with a complex theory to justify it --as oppose to saying God did it.

Still, sometimes I'm struck at how beautiful the world we live in is. Maybe its all the be green mentality shoveled and forced by my university, but it really is important to try to keep the damn planet alive and happy. Otherwise, whose going to be around to do anything?


Another unrelated thought (related by synapse I suppose or I wouldn't have thought of it), I think it's odd that  so many people look for a meaning in life. Why can't you just live to live? Nothing wrong with that. Some people have to justify themselves with religion, some people justify their good deeds as their purpose, other people just want success and fame. From a Darwin point of view, the whole point of living is to make some babies and further the species. I wonder if Darwin would have realized that that would give space exploration its singular goal of spreading the human species to other planets? Although, in the same way as Darwins birds on islands, I wonder would each planet evolve its own genre of human? How interesting that would be! Space exploration would result in such interesting issues and excitement. For example, I highly doubt that no interplanetary war would break out between opposing political factions between planets. Assuming that each planet would have a dominant political standpoint in galaxy-wide issues. I wonder if there would be a president of planets haha.

Unrelated. Current music choice I don't know why, I recently started enjoying listening to soundtracks to anime's I've watched. I've noticed that almost always, Yuki Kajiura is the composer of the music that I really like. She does a lot of things with choirs and mixing genres together. All her music sounds good on acoustic guitar as well so maybe thats why I like it -- because I can find tabs or sheet music and play along. Its nice. The link I just included sounds awesome on flute as well.