Saying Goodbye to Summer

I love Summer. Summer is such a great time. Until the end, when Summer ends, leaves start falling and the winds pick up, soon enough there's cold everywhere and there's nothing you can do about it. School starts up again, and summer flings end, couples who go to school together see each other again in glorious reunion, couples who go to different schools have to say their goodbyes.

I'm the latter. I've never had to really say goodbye to someone I care about so much before. The only other time I had a girlfriend who I had to say bye to was college freshmen year --and I was an asshole and didn't really care. So, this is the first time I've really had to do that. To sum it up inadequately, its hard.

To sum it up properly, which can't be done, here is my attempt. Imagine feeling content, satisfied, happy, and  comforted. Now imagine someone telling you you weren't going to feel those quite the same way for a little while, and then proceed to take each one of those away slowly, that's sorta what its like. Its not like I'm going to be devoid of happiness, feel unsatisfied, sad, or discontent. I can find happiness in my friends, I can find satisfaction in my work, I might even feel content every now and then after a long day of productivity and settling for a good sleep.  Feeling comforted though, that ones hard to get back. And each of the other feelings I listed off, while they can be partially fulfilled by others, no one quite fills it like your significant other.

There's a reason they're called your significant other. Simply put, their opinions matter to you, you take them into consideration when you make decisions about the most minute detail. The words you choose to say to them affects them moreso than anyone else. When you or someone else matters to the other person, its an indescribable comfort. When just being with someone makes you happy and content, what more could you want? Feeling unsatisfied? A significamt other is almost always ready for a compliment to make you feel good, and its one that they mean.


I need sleep